When darkness was among us, capture the flag began by picking teams and defining boundaries. I was young, so naturally not a hot commodity for a captain to choose, but I was faster than most, so it paid my dues. The two teams set off, promising not to look at where the other team was hiding their flag. As soon as the flags were hidden, under a canoe, rock, windowpane, or wherever, we began. The big kids took off sprinting in search of the paper-towel flag. I was hesitant and too afraid of the dark and of being tagged in the other team’s boundaries to be sent to “jail,” so I stayed on my team’s side to guard our flag in safe territory. Someone would eventually uncover and come running back with the other team’s flag to ensure a victory as he or she crossed the boundary line back into his or her home territory. Exhausted and cold after playing several games, I headed to the bonfire on the beach with a few of the neighbor kids my age. My parents were already sitting there on a wooden bench facing the dark chilly water and gossiping with our adult neighbors. I helped myself to a gushy and warm peanut butter cup s’more and snuggled in next to my parents. I usually managed to sneak a second s’more before they could notice.
I stared up into the sky while the adults talked and noticed the thousands of stars that shone above my head. The longer I stared, the more shooting stars I would see. However, I didn’t need to make any wishes, I was right where I wanted to be and with the people I wanted to be with. Higgins Lake was and still is, my home away from home where I feel at peace.
As time has passed, it has been harder to make it up north to the lake than it used to be. My mom and I would spend weeks at the cottage over the summer without a thought about returning home. Now, I am lucky to make it to the cottage a few weekends a summer.
It is also not the same lake that it used to be and I have become slightly afraid of it. Higgins Lake has always been crystal clear. I could swim in two hundred feet deep water and still see my toes dancing under the water’s surface below me. Unfortunately, the lake’s beauty has become a part of its downfall. The astonishingly clear water attracts a type of duck that causes what locals call “Swimmer’s Itch.” Swimmers come out of the lake clawing and scratching at their legs and arms with no relief for a few days. All it took was for me to get it once, and I have hardly entered the water since. The lake has also been infested with Zebra Mussels. The mussels attach themselves to rocks and can easily cut the bottom of a swimmer’s foot with their sharp edges.
I miss the old Higgins Lake. It will forever be my lake and second home, but I crave the days where I could freely swim through the serene water and not have a worry in the world. I miss the nights of searching for penguin eggs, even if they just turned out to be rocks, and playing capture the flag with neighborhood friends. Yet, I look forward to a future at Higgins Lake. Every summer I have wonderful new experiences that continuously shape me into who I am and who I am becoming. There is no place I would rather be.



